Mental Examination Rape

I don’t think this University thing is fuh me nah :/

Imagine I started this blog  like 3 days ago and I’m only now finishing it, on what I call a mild break from studying at the library because I’m waiting on someone to bring me my calculator. Ain’t no way I’m calculating this binomial probability distribution equation by hand, you cray? Lol. I hate exams.

Exams begin tomorrow, Thursday and within 7 days I’m done, actually, exactly 7 days. That’s great and all, except now my exams are jammed up, which I hate, but also sort of like because then I am forced to study and not in any way skylark(slack off if you didn’t know what that word means, lol) although I still do it regardless, but meaningfully and to a little extent.

I hate exams. 

I have yet to actually really study for tomorrow’s own and I’m trying not to freak out about the three I have next week God willing. I mean, midterms JUST FINISHED. Ok, not really, October it finished, well, sorta, with the exception of those 2 most hated courses(Statistics and Financial Accounting) on the first day in November, but still. It feels like just now, and BAM finals. Two exams in one semester, 12 weeks, is just NOT COOL. ANDDD on top of that, to have projects, heckloads of projects and presentations worth like 4 percent, FOUR PERCENT -___________- 4 online quizzes worth 1 percent each? what's the probability of me gettin the 1percent given my studying habits? Ok, well using the conditional probability approach we solve for P(A|B) which is equal to P(A) x P(B|A) :| my words Statistics is taking me over :| 

Ok back on track here, lol. See,  during CAPE we had two years to learn a few books ya know, for 5 subjects yes, but everything was year long. Here? You have to learn the entire 400 page textbook and understand it, for all of your courses. *Am I still alive?* Currently I’m on page 213 in my statistics textbook and the book is over 600 pages long. *Prays for Divine Intervention for my exam*  I really hope that the exam comes doable, then again Imma just be glad once it’s over. Thankfully, your GPA in your first year doesn’t count towards the GPA for your final degree. First year, is basically just a foundation, because most everyone in my faculty is doing the same 10 courses till we streamline according to our degree n the second year.

I feel like I’m writing a letter to a pen pal, letting them know how University is going. Weird. Lol

Next Semester, God willing. I NEED to deal with this UWI thing better. I started off and fluctuated really good. I would spend hours in the library. I’ve seen the library over 30 times probably, which is more than I can say for people who’ve seen it once in the three years they’ve been at UWI(You know yourself *evil grin*) And I pray next semester I get better group members, ahh group projects are the absolute WORST.  But I’m not gonna ramble on about that right now. I hate exams.

Where is this chick with my calculator? Blech, back to reading.

Tomorrow. Sigh* lol Time to go prepare for the start of what I like to call 'Mental Examination Rape' :| 

 So till next time, hopefully exams don’t kill me by the time of my next blog. DId I mention I hate exams? ok, just checking :| 

That is all [Exeunt] 

Gym-ing it! Habit 2

So, just as a recap of last week's attempt at building a early to bed early rise study/sleep habit. [See challenge here: http://everydemonwantshispoundofflesh.blogspot.com/2012/10/early-to-bed-early-to-rise-habit-1.html ] It failed *facepalm* It was successful relatively for the first 2 days, then after that it was back to sleeping late, but that is primarily because I got home late and I was dealing with a bit of confusion with regards to school, anddddd then because on weekends I study better at night when everyone is asleep, so yea, fail :/ lol 

So I paid for gym membership since the first or second day of school (aren't I the proactive student? not). I never went. lol That was due to a complication with my track membership and also a lottttt to do with my laziness. But this week, is gym week! And, well, every week, I guess. But the point is, for me to start somewhere, so I shall. So for this week, my goal is to spend a minimum of 3 hours in the gym at school. 

We'll see how that goes, and, well I'm going to TRY the early to bed early rise thing again. Hopefully this time I don't fail as horribly as last week. But heyyy, there's a reason they call this a challenge! >.< but I'll get there :D 

Takes about 21 days right? to make something a habit? darn it! Tough. Ah well, lol 
So, I'll keep you guys informed on this one. And oooo,I thought of doing a vlog challenge, consecutive vlogging for a set amount of days, because I planned to make a video like 6 weeks ago and I haven't yet. Fail. lol I'll think about it. 
So, till next time. Have a great week yall :D 

Ooooo, just thought I'd leave yall with this song, an absolute favourite of mine. Let it be some encouragement for yall :) 

Early to Bed, Early to Rise. Habit 1

So, during CAPE exams, I had this week where exams were literally back to back for an entire week. History Monday, Geography Tuesday, Spanish Wednesday, History Thursday, Geography on Friday, ugh, it was hectic. I hated it, I had to cope somehow, so for that entire week, I studied literally ALL NIGHT ALL MORNING, took a nap, studied then went to my exam. Come home, then sleep for like 4 hours and repeat. Needless to say i was hella stressed out that week, but at least my brain absorbed a bit more that way, sort of, lol

So yes, point is, my mind works better when it's fresh, and after school all day, I tend to come home and not be able to settle and focus...jointly because I'm tired, it's very hot, I have too many distractions like the internet, my parents want me to do stuff, it's noisy because everyone's active watching television and so I can't focus. I really need to focus, university life sucks. So I decided for my first habit, I would go to bed between 8-9, 9:30 for the latest, and 10 on days when I'm home extra late. and get up between 3-4 to study and do other activities. 

So last night, I went to bed at 9:30 and got up at 4 after the work of about 5 alarms :| lol xD And lemme just say it is awesome! I felt like I literally had more time in my day to do anything and everything I wanted. On normal days I go to bed whenever I feel sleepy, which is usually no time before 1, then get up late and rush to go to school, so I never get to eat breakfast. 
WELLL BLOWWWW MEEEE DOWNNNNNN, 'cause guess what, today I had time to slice bread, heat bread, butter bread, cut rotisserie chicken, heat rotisserie chicken, eat bread with my chicken, AND sit down and drink a cup of tea! FIRST TIME IN LIKE, OH MY GOODNESS, YEARS MAYBE! lol Never did that in secondary school 'cause I got boxlunch (now I don't and I'm very sad) :( 

And in addition to that, I had time to do a little chores, I made up my bed, yes that was a major task 'cause I was sharing with a lot of stuff, lol xD folded and put away plenty clothes. Plus I had time to comb a lot of my hair in twists, and all of this was done before 6:30am! Imagine that. I wouldn't have gotten any time to do that after school, because by then I'd be twisting myself around trying to settle, and I wouldn't! So It felt good :) 

ANDDDDDD it was also so coooooool! I love being up early, because it's quiet, I have time to myself, I have quiet to myself, quiet to sit and pray, quiet to watch the sunrise, see the sky change from it's dark deep blue to a bright one, hear the birds as they wake up ^_^ Talking about birds, the other night I happened to notice two keskidees in one of our trees, I never saw them before, but I always wondered why the tree used to shake gently at night. Till I somehow startled one and it flew out then i watch where it landed. And after that I saw the other one, completeyyyyy camoflauged! it was amazing, to me at least, and now I check to see if they're there every night and they are ^_^ So before 6am I went to see if they were still asleep, and nopeee they were already fluttering about. See even birds see the importance and urgency in waking up early. Early bird catches the worm right? So true. 

So, lots of habits started today. 
1. Getting up early to study and do other stuff
2. Drinking tea and having breakfast
3. Doing some sort of chore for a few minutes
and for these, I feel accomplished. I think this is the start of a great habit ^_^ One that will help me in future endeavours. I'm typing this blog from work at 3:30 pm, and I'm not even tired, I didn't come to school tired either, and I was more alert. 
OOO OOO! I HAD LUNCH ON TIME TOO! :D **backflips** whooooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo ^_^ And you know why I had it on time as well, 'cause I brought my own food, I had TIME to pack my own lunch, yeaaaaaa 8-) saved monayyyyyy todayyyy xD Feels like a boss* 

Oooooo and I also started speaking to myself :) Not the normal speak in where I talk to myself, share a joke or two and argue with myself, a different kind but more on that later. It's already after 9 and I'm not in bed because I just got home D: so, till next time :D 

Habits. Challenge, I think :/

I AM SO FREAKING LAZY DAMMIT!
So, a couple things to note before you continue reading. 
1. I'm writing this at midnight, I'm incredibly tired, came home awhile ago from an almost 4 hour rehearsal for a show. 
2. I'm just talking continuously, no backspacing of thoughts, and I type as I think.
3. There is no 3 :| lol fooled ya :P 

Here goes. 
I, am, so, bleh idk even. Maybe I should just make this random thoughts of a random girl part 3? :/ 
I feeling rel out of it tonight. I need to sleep. No wait, that's not what I came to blog about. Yes! Habits. 
I hate mines :/ I have good ones, and then I have not so good ones. I suffer with a disease called procrastination. It's pretty serious. For example, I should've made this blog post since the start of September, saying of course that I had to cancel my last challenge, the quadrilingualism one,(see post here http://everydemonwantshispoundofflesh.blogspot.com/2012/08/quadrilingualism-challenge.html ) because I got involved in so many different activities during the vacation. But nope, so to anyone who wanted to know how that went, I'm sorry :/ And also, I should've just been persistent with my blogging, and my vlogging! Havent made a video in over a month! wow that sucks :( Actually, I made about three, never edited and uploaded them however, seeeeeee, procrastination. Dammit! 
But ya know me, I want change, I put it in a challenge :) 

So, Let's call this, Habitual week? Or maybe month? It takes about 20 days of repetition for a habit to be formed or something Me thinks, so fine a Habitual month week. Oh goushhhh if I start with the amount of habits I need to cut I eh go finish now :/ lol ok I exaggerate it. hehehe Mr. Noodle *said in Elmo's voice* I do a really good Mr. Noodle xD ahhh my boob hurts :/ wait whattttt? *scrolls up* Something bout habits. Ah yes! Habitual Month it shall be!

So during the course of the month, I shall blog about the different habits I'm trying to change. Forgive me if they overwhelm you. lol And not just habits to replace, but things I want to make into habits. Sooooo, for those of you who enjoyed my 30 Day Do Something New Everyday Challenge from last year :) *Appreciate yall btw* ;) I hope yall enjoy this one! Stick around, try a thing or two :) It's always a good time ^_^ Fuh reals tho, I had heck of a lot of fun last year with that aforementioned (<<< take in that big word LOL) challenge. xD
Why I must type so ghetto? :/ Typing like how I does talk, pressah, lol

Ok I have class at 9am, and it takes about 1:15 minutes for me to travel, relatively comfortably to school :/ So Imma get to my bed now (lies, I'm probably gonna chat a bit, browse, sit around and stare then fall asleep without climbing on my bed, get up about 2am with neck pain then drag myself to my un-made-up bed and wake up late for school) heyyy, at least I'm honest with myself! I ain't fronting! humph. That's what this challenge is for. So stay tuned :)
And oh yea, check out my vlog if you'd like. Reading this unless you really know me of course, then you barely know how I talk and sound. So hopefully my vlog helps clear things up, well, whenever I post more random videos. OH MA GAWSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH *holds face dramatically* I SHOULD HAVE A 30 DAY RANDOM VIDEO CHALLENGE! :O Nugging! *click* dudeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Awesome Idea! imma think about it :D Am I talking to myself right now? Geez shut up, steups, no, leave me alone :| okies I stop talk crazy now :|

Bai Bai Mr. Noodle ^_^ 

Quadrilingualism Challenge

So, I like languages. I'm not sure if it's a passion, but I do enjoy learning it, speaking it, confusing people with it and meeting people who actually speak it! But now that I'm out of Secondary school and moving onto a degree, one that may not necessarily be Spanish >_< well, hopefully, a minor at least, it's going to be tough to keep up with it, or even learn new ones. Partly because I'd be focused on other studies, and mainly because, I just wouldn't be focused on studying it, out of a classroom setting. So I'm bringing the classroom to home! 


I like 7 and 30 Day Challenges, But I guess, until the end of August? Or maybe till i start University(hopefully) oh gosh, * hyperventilates and panics at the thought that I may not get in D: * But no sooner than August is over, shall i complete this challenge :D Basically, I'm going to try learning 3 foreign languages simultaneously;i.e completing the same lessons such as Basic Greetings, grammar rules, descriptions, travel etc, each on the same day. And considering English is my first language, it will count as 4 in the end, thus making me a quadrilinguist, or polyglot. But, in addition to those, I'm going to widen my vocabulary. For now, I'll start with 5 new words per day, that I shall use in my day to day speech as practice, and just for the fun of it, attempt to learn and remember those same 5 new words, in each of the three foreign languages :D 
I can imagine some people saying, 'for the fun of it? what part of that sounds fun to you? o.O' lol but I like the challenge ^_^ 
And this is definitely going to be a challenge, considering I may be involved in other activities, whole day ones, that would greatly infringe on the time needed to study, but the important thing is that I try! 


Oh, and lastly, the foreign languages shall be:
Spanish
Already fluent in that, but CAPE really messed up my ability to learn basic stuff, it packed my brain with advanced topics like Global warming, tourism, globalization and technology, and got rid of the basic 'Hola' lol Ok I keed I keed hehe but I want to take my time and really develop my skills in it through continuous practice, soooo ya.


French
Did French up to form 3 in Secondary school, was never excellent at it,just average, but I blame that entirely on myself because I didn't focus or study it as often as I should've, but once I did, I was awesome at it! Too bad I dropped it like a breadfruit after that, lol 


And the last language, I'm gonna need suggestions. I was thinking Portugese, but ughhhhh it's so close to Spanish, well relatively, and I don't think I want to become incredibly fluent in that, or maybe, not yet. 
But I'm also thinking Mandarin, apparently more people in the world speak Mandarin than they do English :O 
And also Russian, considering it is one of the 6 Official Languages of the United Nations. That way, I'd know 4 of them, but If I do both Mandarin and Russian I'd know 5 :O I SHOULD LEARN 5 LANGUAGES!!! lol xD 
In case anyone was wondering, the last official one is Arabic.


5 Languages, hmmm *strokes imaginary beard* Quintilinguistic Lifa. I shall think about it. So Portugese, Mandarin or Russian? I shall ponder ^_^

So till tomorrow please God! 
See you later
Hasta Luego
A plus tard
Ate logo!


...Just looked up how to say see you later in Russian and Mandarin and my expression is o.O What are those things! lol
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That is all [Exeunt] ^_^

Please Listen

When I ask you to listen to me
and you start giving me advice,
you have not done what I asked.

When I ask you to listen to me
and you begin to tell me why
I shouldn’t feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something
to solve my problem,
you have failed me,
strange as that may seem.

Listen! All I ask is that you listen.
Don’t talk or do – just hear me.

Advice is cheap; 20 cents will get
you both Dear Abby and Billy Graham
in the same newspaper.
And I can do for myself; I am not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering,
but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can
and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and
inadequacy.

But when you accept as a simple fact
that I feel what I feel,
no matter how irrational,
then I can stop trying to convince
you and get about this business
of understanding what’s behind
this irrational feeling.

And when that’s clear, the answers are
obvious and I don’t need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when
we understand what’s behind them.

Perhaps that’s why prayer works, sometimes,
for some people – because God is mute,
and he doesn’t give advice or try
to fix things.
God just listens and lets you work
it out for yourself.

So please listen, and just hear me.
And if you want to talk, wait a minute
for your turn – and I will listen to you. 

~Author Unknown~

Read this in Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul, and loved it. Such a sad reality that people can't do such a task as listening alone.They think they understand the meaning of the word, but it's far deeper than just 'hearing', much more perplex than sharing your view.  Just LISTEN. It sounds easy, simple, but yet, we still find a way to add to it, and take away from it. I don't need your advice, I just need you to listen. 

Challenge Update and Trip to the Dentist!

I'm so lazy :| gosh that's gotta stop! >.< 

Ok so my challenge finished since Saturday, and well it was successful ^_^ Ate meat the Saturday though, but success nonetheless :D I must say, going to bed early...er, is relatively tough but very rewarding! Bed between 11-12, NO LATER! and up by 8, you get a lot more out of the day! 

One thing is for sure, I missed meat!  and fried fish :D :D Don't think I'd be doing a vegan challenge anytime soon again.

Today, I went to the dentist! ^_^ His name is Mr. Agbontaen  [Ag-bun-tine] and he's from Nigeria! WE go way back(meaning he's been my dentist since I was like 11?] He's pretty cool too, I can guarantee I'd always smile when I'm there. He always changes my surname :s Lifa Marawaski! Princess Lifa, the best surgeon in the Caribbean! Lifa (Insert List of other cool African Names and Royalty here) lol ^_^ 

Today was kinda weird though, he came late and didn't react all smiley, and was somewhat forgetful. I guess something was bothering him :/ Either way, as soon as he changed my surname my heart smiled, LOL silly, but simple enough to make an impact. And according to him, I'm 'best patient' lol 

One thing for sure, there is NOOOO face uglier, than the one you have when a dentist is operating in your mouth o.O Thank Goodness I can't see it! lol And gosh that suction straw the assistant has in your mouth, today she really shoved it! But I wouldn't have noticed much to be suctioned anyways because half of my lower face was NUMB! 

Mocaine tastes weird :/

Injections hurt :( 

Literally felt the liquid going through the flesh surrounding my mandible during the injection D: 

Nigerians are cool :D 

Drilled tooth smells like a burning mosquito :/

The blue light they put in your mouth, idk what it is, but it requires eye protection, makes your mouth feel realllllyyyy funny! In a weird way funny, and kinda hurt my head, I wonder what it does :/ 

I LOVEEEEE gettin my teeth polished! ^_^ it's like a massage in your mouth ^_^ 

Fluoride treatment was apple flavored, delish! ^_^ 

My dentist gave me a toothbrush, toothpaste and dental floss! :D 

Okies, I think that's it with my Dentist trip soliloquy! 

Get checked up! every 6 months peeps :D 

and SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE whilst you still have the teeth to do it :D 

Not sure what this challenge is, Challenge

Unknowing to me, tomorrow please God is the first of July O_O And there I was writing in work, 'call back on Monday 1st' haha faillll. I rarely ever know what day it is though :/ But that's not the point. Otherwise, it's great that it is, because I always like to start challenges on the 1st of a month ^_^ 


So I've postponed this for awhile now, tried it, probably lasted one day, meat was just so overwhelmingly delicious! This is originally meant to be a 'Vegetarian' Challenge. So no meat, just the good ole veggies and stuff. But I think I need to easeeee my way into that, and so it's a 'Semi-Vegetarian' Challenge. And the reason for that is primarily because, I really like cheese lol and Ryvita #Addicted >.< plus I need milk, and well, fish is awesome :/ okies, so basically it's like this.
No Chicken
No Beef
No other type of meat except fish
Some animal products such as eggs(haven't had eggs in months :O ) and milk :D 
The veggies I shall try to consume as raw as possible! 
And the fish shall not be cooked with any sort of oil. 


So I guess it's more of a health challenge? hmmm
Then I figured why not add a new spin to it, and have a 'Go to Bed at a Reasonable Hour and Not Spend the Entire Night Watching How I Met Your Mother or Gossip Girl or Pretty Little Liars or Any Other Sitcom That I Have on My Watch Sitcoms All Vacation List Plus Wake up Earlier Whilst Being a Semi- Vegetarian Challenge' ^_^ 

Watched Gossip Girl from 11:30- now today :| And basically finished 4 seasons of HIMYM already, would've finished a month ago o.O ^_^ 
And well, I sleep pretty late.really early and that's probably not a good thing unless I plan to work Night Jobs in the future :| 
So this should be interesting, and rewarding I hope :) 
So here's to hoping for success for the next 7 days ^_^ 

Soooooo I Got Robbed.

Well the title pretty much explains it all. So I'm not really sure where to go from here, thoughts so scattered :/

I always wonder and marvel at little changes, big ones too, but the little ones in particular. Like how, taking one taxi instead of the other just seconds away, could be the difference between life and death. Or how, staying back at home 2 minutes longer, or forgetting something and having to go back for it, could be the determinant of whether or not you may notice something, find something, understand something. And lastly, the impact. The impact the littlest things could have on you. Like seeing someone with a certain hairstyle, and your mind goes on into how awesome it may be, how confident they may be, then somehow reach to the point where it eats at your insecurities, makes you wonder why you can't be that yourself, bold and brave, and from then you make the decision to be better, become like this person who might as well be a figment of your imagination as for only a second you glimpsed then, or to wallow in self pity and regret, remorse for everything you've done and haven't done, inevitably leading to a downward spiral. How? from seeing someone's hairstyle? The little things. 

Quite frankly I'm not sure how I feel about this all yet, it fluctuates. No one really knows EXACTLY how they're respond in dangerous situations. Your conscious mind fathers information from your senses, daily experiences, impacting directly on your subconscious, or inner conscious level, causing you to think certain ways, and react different ways. It's sorta like a computer, storing all that information, making you either function smoothly, malfunction in certain areas, or even crash when these inner thoughts are brought to a conscious level. Point is, lol, who really knows EXACTLY what they'd do. 

So here I was, walking home, only to be attacked from behind by two guys. Now you see two guys coming behind you, maybe you get suspicious, but had I looked back, I wouldn't have. Why? Because I know one of them, literally from younger days, went to my primary school, coming to my house to pick five-finger off my tree, all ah dat! So in the actual robbery, I sat on the floor thinking, whilst still strugglin with my bag and them, really? you? you're one of the guys robbing me? REALLY? and then of course, oh no, my money, my bb,my ipod and the stuff I just bought for my graduation in like 2 hours! But, I let go the bag. I didn't know if they had a weapon, and quite frankly I didn't want to find out. Strangely, there was this little boy, no more than 11, just there, on a bike, watching. And when they decided they can't find my phone let's just snatch the bag and go,the little boy rides up to me and says 'Family, what happen?' Really? -_- So tiredly, I ran to the main street to see if anyone was in the road and could have stopped them, saw a neighbor and he called after them, but how much does that really do? Nonetheless, it was appreciated. So, in the blink of an eye, I lost pretty valuable things, think my ring got slid off too..my graduation ring :/
Well, a lotttttttttt more ensued after the event!. It's so mind blowing the amount of things that transpired in the last 24 hours O_O 

But, I am quite honestly not in the frame of mind to discuss that just yet. But now, I'm even more thankful. Worse things could have happened, but it didn't and I thank the Lord for it all. Despite me losing those stuff, those guys lost even more and will continue to lose more. And I pray for them and for better.

P.S I had a blastttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt at my graduation regardless!! I didn't care who bothered that I danced and skipped around with my friends allllllll night, I had just the right to be there, as anyone else, and I live for not a single one of them. But thank God for great friends to share it with! Shar, Lileh, Ma g Nadz, Kankan, Bridge, Pearly, Kimi times 2 and of course, my darling brother Damian :) I love you guys! ^_^ 

WHAT I HATE ABOUT CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

It's the most wonderful time of the year. I can't dispute that there's a greater sense of joy around this time, hearing parang music on the radio...wait thats all that excites me? wow -_-

Christmas is NOT an excuse to go bankrupt. Why on earth do I need new curtains? What is wrong with the ones from last 3, 4, 5 years?!?! And why must they be so damn fancy!?! -_- 

People go crazyyy buying things! Quite frankly, I'd paint my house in August if I can, Christmas time pretty much would just equal- free time to do it. 

Prices DO NOT "go down" -_-. I checked a catalogue from Courts or Standards or whatever months ago, and compared the items on "sale" with those then...SAME PRICE!! In fact, this jus tmight be when prices hike up, because the demand for every single thing increases. I do NOT need to spend over 1000 dollars on groceries alone dammit! >.< 

Christmas is NOT an excuse to drink alcohol excessively!! It is NOT an excuse to go out and lime and "have a good time" dousing down everything that comes your way. Sure fruit cake is great but geez, must you overdo the alcohol?

Who on earth is santa claus? Whyyyyyyyyyyyy do parents lie to their children. It's bribery, it's a lie and its damn foolish! it's also very idolatrous, seeing that children worship Santa's feet, hoping to get something for Christmas. And quite frankly, it's pretty eurocentric too, seeing that ya know, we don't have chimneys in the Caribbean -_- Santa u racist or summ? U discriminatory? *coas*

Quite likely, Jesus was NOT even born on December 25th and nowhere in the Bible do people really celebrate birthdays anyway, except for 3 occasions where bad things all happened (Google it, or read yo Bible yo) All in all, though I don't feel inclined to get in this "spirit" ie...EXCESS! I celebrate the fact that ONE man, Jesus Christ, loves me, and us all, sooooooooo much, that He'd die for me, to reconcile my relationship with God, paving the way for my eternity! :)

And what have we become, glutton, lazy and easily swayed? What is xmas? I thought the  Word was Christmas? I thought the reason for the season was CHRIST! WHO IS X??!?!? Did X come to save my life?

Sooooo, why not choose a time to celebrate this fact then- ie christmas season? uhm WHY NOT DO IT ALLLLLLLLLL THE TIME? Does the Lord say, wellllllllllll Imma help you today, Imma hear your prayer today, I'll comfort you and be there for you today, but tomorrow I rell cyah handle u nah, or next week neither, matter of fact, I'm booked through February, so whenever ah get de chance to help yuh ah go do it? uhh NO! So why, for this ONE time, do we get so focused on "THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT" 

What Spirit? hanging reindeer and excess lights outside my house does NOT make me feel the "spirit"

Having a tree up, does NOT make me feel the "spirit"

Drinking alcohol, liming, paranging does NOT make me feel the "spirit" 

Cleaning and painting does NOT make me feel the spirit.

And quite frankly Im sick and TIRED or hearing ppl say "I doh feel the Christmas spirit" if yuh buying ting, eating ting, drinking ting, paranging and ting, then yuh in the spirit alright! But which one. 

I rather feel the Holy Spirit. I'd rather have a peaceful Christmas, than a loud, festive Christmas.

I rather have peace within myself for a lifetime, than spend one day in glutton excessive, pointless celebration to feel temporary happiness. Cuz guess what people..drink away your problems today, they are still there in the morning! 

I rather lend a helping hand to those in need, than sit back and wait for a bunch of gifts to be given to me. Naively before, Id wish for gifts. But the thing is, if the Lord doesn't do anything else for me, He's already done enough. And that's the greatest gift of all.

So have a blessed, holy Christmas. And perhaps, before going outside to galavant and play, take some more time to pray. Always remember the reason, not just for a season, for always. 

*deep breath* 

Random Thoughts of a Random Girl 2

We gonna hunt you down, *does two finger gun salute dance* o.O
Eff what you said, it dont mean sh*t now! Eff your presence mite as well be a cow
Take a drink ah this, take a drink ah dat, oh yes trini Christmas is the bestttttt *rows hands like a boat* Ah-Yee!!! xD
You my friend, is ah bake, ah dry up old bake!
I WANNA GO TO CUBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :(
If I was a rich girl, nah nah nah nh nah nuh nah nuh nah nah nahhhh *mumbles incoherently*
Vinegar. OMG what a racist word! :O lol 
Shake that bootayyy, turn it aroundddddd. 
Some likkle children ANNOYING! geeezz ann, why yuh touch meh dictionary eh? steups like yuh buy that, gosh was I that annoying?
Cant be, I was quiet :D and shyyyyyyyyyy :D 
Tryna figure out what happened..I rel cyah do them primary school math questions if yuh ask me now nuh, LOL ok prob some :P
mehhhhhhhhh, neighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *kicks hooves* LOL 
When you are feeling a little low, oh oh oh, itching and ah scratching
Rastaman vibrations yeaaa, POSITIVE xD Big tune
Yuh doh haffi dread to be rastaaa, no haffi dread *sways* 
I can isolate mah body 8-) Drama ftw!
What the hell is all this encryption on the page! Go away!
I DONT WANNA GROW OLDERRRRRRRRR YET! MAKE IT STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP :( 
I rel want dumbells tho and ah yoga mat! >.>
Santa can you hear me?!?!?! I have been so good this year, LOL Santa wey yuh gonna come thru, meh window? what kinda stalker gully creeping behavious is that? steups. lol We doh meddle in tha milk nd cookies ting neither! 8-)
I like to scrape the vanilla out of the oreo and eat the biscuit alone, does that mean Im racist? o.O
WHATS GREEN AND SEE THRU?!?! ..... THIS LETTUCE RIGHT HERE, HAHAHAHA *dies* haha
I REAL WANT AH PACK SOUP THO! steupssssssssssssss. 
You think I weird? wait who exactly am I talking to, swear I does talk to myself nuh, and real answer back too wth! Steups girl you crazy, yea kinda, hehehe Not really tho, meh yes really, gosh boi juhhhhh. 
I want ah spanish mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, to marry me, oh gosh yes parang sweet *dances*
Enrique Iglesias :D  ay yuh know daddy yankee songs kinda cool. lol
I pity you insecure people, I mean we all have em, but channel em positively, accept yourself. You're only hurting others and yourself further by lashing out on people!
TRUCK TRUCK TRUCK! lol de chairs fall off de back ah de truck yes, LOL
Tales of mere existence. Im on a goat o.O If hI really were, that goat would prob hate me :/ 
gah
Lappy why did you crash? :( Work! :( 
Remordimientos reunan como viejos amigos, aqu para remorar sus momentos mas oscuros :( 
I wah see breaking dawn tho! I shud finish read them book, mehhh get fed up in the third book. mehhh. 
Swag out the world SOLAR, Im so cold POLAR! burrr, lol *insert washing machine here* xDDDDD 
School does be level heights sometimes inno, lol 
But wait nah, ah pack soup still eh come yet, nah somebody gonna get bitten >.> 
Rel cyah believe my moms eat out de pootigal before I could come get it >.>
RAS HOBO! LOL excuse me sir do you know that the last 4 digits of your number spells hobo? aahahhahahaha 
ah find these mosquites rel boldface tho. 
Mellow vybez now
I would like to visit the moon, on a rocket ship high in the air...

CARAMEL POPCORN =WINNNNNNNN! ^_^

I CAN BARELY CONTAIN MYSELF! I should get a bigger container then, hehehehe ok that was stale :/ lol
Ok, so all weekend I've been feeling peckish and wanted caramel popcorn, not like the one I made last time though, lol I wanted it even better! And well, I was supposed to make for someone's birthday(they really liked the last batch, lol) so I decided heck why not make it today! ^_^


So I spent like 45 minutes shelling peanuts and breaking them in half, ouch. I cyah be ah nuts 'oman on the highway inno, painnnnn! lol I got my apparatus ready beforehand, well most of it and I popped my corn :) IT POPPED BEAUTIFULLLYYYYYY! Like OMG! There was not a single corn to be popped still! (or maybe I just didnt see it) and it didn't burn! For awhile I was like, screw caramel popcorn I just wanna eat it like this ^_^ My dad took some, and then I popped another large pot :D Guess how that popped? STUPENDOUSLY! :D eeeeeeeeeep! Im too excited, haha
So during this, the pot was on the stove, but nothing in it, and I could'nt find the measuring cup so I just started estimating how much of everything and puttin it in the pot. I put sugar like three times, lol Some essence(the light one this time :D) and kept stirring. I put all my nuts(cashew and peanuts) in the two pans with the popcorn and got ready to put my baking soda and watch it rise! :D
Turned off the stove, put in the baking soda and it barely moved, so I was like burrrrr? So I put back on the fire, and put in more baking soda and stirred, it rose just a little bit, but not overfluff like lastime so I was concerned. But in my mind I was like wait nuh, baking soda have TOO MANY USES! To clean, disinfect, get rid of odours, bake and teng, wth! Maybe too much would give ppl chirren the runnings, so I didnt put any more, lolI poured half in one bowl and mixed, and MY WORD WAS IT GORGEOUS! It distributed wonderfully, and was light and looking even better than processed caramel corn x_x. I thought I had too little for the other bowl, but BAM! That spread niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee too. I didnt even use my baking dishes this time, I jsut plopped the two pans in the oven for a few minutes, it sealed the caramel over it, and WOW! It tastes great :) Screw plain popcorn,lol

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM SO EXCITED! We we we so excitedddd *dances* ^_^
I just had to blog about this, my happiness was too much to contain, I had to tell the world! :) Thank God it came out so well :) Cant wait to dive down in some more later :D

My 30 Day Challenge (30) Fasting

Wow, I can't believe the challenge is over ;( It's been wonderful I must say :)
My last day! I fasted. It wasn't meant to be for the challenge however :/
I successfully finished a 4 Day Bible Reading Plan on the topic of Humility from http://www.youversion.com/ and I thought to myself, I'd fast to end it off. And maybe fast at the end of each one completed. I was sort of reluctant at first but went ahead. All I had were fluids, water, bush tea and a small box of juice (because keeping the sugar up a little bit is essential)
By 8:30 my belly was grumbling! But I sipped tea and it went for a couple minutes. Thankfully, nothing for breaktime or lunch came in Boxlunch(the school feeding program) so wanting to eat it wasn't a big issue for me! Twas an issue however, when everyone had such lovely meals I can eat from! All hot and delicious smelling! And then another class was giving out FREE DOUGHNUTS! FREE! x_x temptation was all around, but I resisted and went on to read over the verses I studied :) And after school i bought chow and carried it home to have later :) For the rest of the evening i was fine, just gassy, lol And was somewhat eager for 6pm to reach :) When it did and I returned home from music class, I prayed and ate!
I feel good actually. Just awhile ago my mom asked my to do something whilst I was trying to make toast to eat, and I said oh gwammmmm, but stopped because the thought "Submit yourselves to your elders" from 1Peter 5:5 came to mind. "God resists the proud but gives grace to the humble! " :) 
A good way to end off a challenge I believe, with the Lord! :) 
"My grace is sufficient for you, and my strength is made perfect in weakness" :)
So why worry heh? :) 
So that's it folks! Thanks for all who followed. Shall update on my next challenge tomorrow please God :) Till then! have a wonderful night and be blessed! Check out the website!(It's pretty cool) :)


Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself.
let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.
Let this mind be in you which was also In Christ Jesus. 
~Phillipians 2:3-5~
And don't forget to 

:) Adios!

My 30 Day Challenge (28-29) BAZAAR & FANCY JEWELLERY! ^_^

I'm blogging late againnnnnnnnn :/ I fell asleep before 8pm lastnight! I never sleep that early! lol I think I was too lazy to get up off my bed for anything else and so I just lay down and bep out! Oh well. Yesterday was my Bazaar!
Bazaar: 

A market in a Middle-Eastern country. A fund-raising sale of goods, typically for charity

Lol twas the second definition though. I've been in this school for 7 Years, and it was going to be my last official bazaar there, so I geared myself up and went to have a good time! ^_^ Usually I just jibb, went to the disco twice I think, or miss it because I had a scrabble tournament the same day x_x but this time, I went and I had a darn good time yo! So that was my new thing :) I played games, and more games, and more games, and hula hooped, and played with my friends' little brother, and played more games, and ate and ate and drank and drank, and played more games and helped a tiny bit with the haunted house ^_^ All in all I had a wicked time! ^_^ 
First game I played was called "Light a Candle" and basically all you did was light 8 candles with one match, before the match burns to smithereens or other's blow out. And I won! ^_^ Picked a number to get my prize and got some herbal essences shampoo! So I'm like heyyyyy Just gimme the conditioner if I win again, but they refused :( So I played again, won again, then picked again, and guess what? I PICKED THE CONDITIONER! ^_^ I spent between 60-80 dollars perhaps yesterday and came back home with
Herbal Essences Shampoo and Conditioner
A can opener
A glass plate
Two big bowls (to make meh cake in xD)
A kitchen mitt 
A bunch of nails files in a set!
Small bottle of Ocean Spray Cranberry Juice
Colgate Toothpaste
A bottle of Oil 
And Earrings! ^_^
Had two bags of pholourie, ice cream, 2 LLB's, more ice cream...wait that was all? :O lol Ah well ^_^
I HAD FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ^_^


And so on to today's challenge! I dream some weird things, can't quite remember what but it involved cookie dough! :/ lol Anyways, earlier on, whilst searching for Lord alone knows what, I found where my broken jewellery pieces were :D And so I repaired em! Got myself a chain and a matching bracelet to boot! ^_^

:DDDDDDDD Me likes! 
Took me some time but it's worth it ^_^
Well Bob's your uncle, lol :D
Till Tomorrow Please God when I finish this challenge! :)
Tara! :)

My 30 Day Challenge (27) Supercalifragalisticexpialidocious!

I DRANK FROM MY MARY POPPINS CUP TODAY! ^_^

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep! ^_^ So glad I finally used it! Figured it was time ^_^ and I had El Pecos too! Haven't eaten that in months! So I figured twas a good combo! I got Bbq chicken, jerk chicken, bbq lamb, fried plantain, macaroni salad and green salad, topped with plenty garlic sauce! (The actual garlic chopped up, not that white thing they blend up!) Bbq sauce, mustard, garlic sauce(the white one, lol) and Shadow beni sauce! yummmmmmmmmmmmmeeeehhhhhhhhhhhh!!! ^_^

Anddddddddddd Bob's your uncle! 

P.S I'm really liking this British slang! lol ^_^

[Exeunt Lifa]

My 30 Day Challenge (26) Reggaeton,Meditation

I can't believe there are only 3 more days left! :O 

I'm updating a day late, because well yesterday was just hectic! But totally worth it! :) I went in my bed roughly past 3am o.O Because I prefer doing work when the place is quiet and it's dark? lol And I decided for my challenge yesterday, I'd listen to Reggaeton all day! (I'm sure Salma would love this ;) And well I listened to it from midnight to bedtime, searching different artists on youtube and stuff. They're pretty marchoso! ^_^ (gettin ah lil spanish mix there ^_^) I found this site and was looking them(most of em) up! 

http://www.reggaetonline.net/reggaeton-artists.php <--- So like check it out! :)

However, this challenge got cut short, when I woke up past 10 the following morning, and realised I still had to wash my hair, and comb it for my graduation later x_x So quickly I went! But it was so much trouble! A bunch of my plaits loose out when it's wet :( 

Then to top it off, I had to go in school to drop something for my friend because (not calling any names here) but Salma, lol lost my key! >.< lol grrrr!

And I still had to pack my bags, get all my stuff together, wash the clothes I'd be dancing in, do my  mom's hair etc. But things worked out, and my brother dropped me so I was happy :) 

Nehuzz, The Tallman Foundations' Graduation was AWESOME! I had to perform the "Tallman Song" and a dance! I don't have much pictures, (sprung these off the group page actually lol)

The photographers taking a bow! ^_^

The dancers doing there thing! ^_^ Must admit, this was pretty fun! ^_^

Most of my fellow TallPeople, lol ^_^ With the lovely director, Michele Ayoung Chee! ^_^

Me and my mom after ^_^

Me and a past Tallman Mentor ^_^ 

Twas loads of fun :) I got certificates in Drama, Dance, Photography and Development thingy, lol ^_^

But when I came home, there was no electricity! And I didn't mind. Coming home was so peaceful, dark but so purdy! I liked it! And I got a chance to light a candle I got for Christmas last year or year before. Twas cool. And so I decided to stop and think and reflect about life and the future and read some Bible scripture by candlelight :) This really stood out to me

   ¹³ Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” ¹⁴ Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. ¹⁵ Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.” ¹⁶ As it is, you boast in your arrogant schemes. All such boasting is evil. ¹⁷ If anyone, then, knows the good they ought to do and doesn’t do it, it is sin for them.

~James 4:13-17

So many times we make plans of our owns, without considering what is God's plan for us? And so if they fail we're disappointed. Had we just trusted in the Lord to guide our footsteps and shape our lives, we wouldn't be faced with such disappointment, but instead we boast about plans, about ourselves, our accomplishments, putting God aside and then picking Him back up when your plans don't go as you hoped?  

 Read a couple more different ones, like the parables Jesus told. One being about having talents and producing more, whilst the other man hid it and did nothing with it. And another parable about the Word being on good ground, where people listen to it and internailize it letting it guide them, whereas others just hear it and for the moment are delighted then forget it and go about their lives. Then I started Ecclesiastes and after awhile, relaxed, then fell asleep. I got up shortly after however, and current came back, but I liked the quiet and not being all up under electronic devices, and so I went back to bed :) And I took pictures too! 

So that's my blog for yesterday! Didn't wanna make this one extra long so here's the link for today's blog! ^_^ See ya on that post ;) lol ^_^

http://andthisishowthestorygoes.blogspot.com/2011/11/my-30-day-challenge-27.html

My 30 Day Challenge (25) Hablando en Espanol! Handstands!

So my friend Salma recommended I speak in Spanish for at least half of the day! AWESOME! That was DEFINITELY a challenge! So my first convesation was trying to explain Dimples x_x and the most used phrase was "un momento" for each time I had to go in the giant bricklike dictionary we're required to bring to classes. lol But after awhile I got the hang of it, sorta!
One teacher didn't come to class so that was a bummer! I didn't get to answer questions in Spanish :( So for the free period I watched music videos(how shameful :( :/ ) And talked in spanish, several times just staying quiet because I can't formulate the sentence I'd like! lol Twas lots of fun tho! ^_^
But by the end of lunch it was back to English. It was hard to dance with my friend, researching songs to do learnt choreography to and talk to other people at the same time! :( I fail hard. 
So it only lasted about 2 hours, jejeje. 
But as compensation for that, I decided to do something I haven't done in years! A handstand!
Form 1 days I was doing it like it was watching television! Going into crab-backs with it, dancing, switching legs, doing aerobics with my feet in the air and I was freaking high on it! ^_^ But now I'm afraid, lol So I decided to face my fear and just do it!
And I did during dance rehearsal! ^_^ And then I just wanted to keep doing it over and over! I was really bummy at first but once I was up the first time, that was it! twas all I wanted to do ^_^ 

So this was mid- fancy hand movement dance step thingy, lol

Mid buppy looking wining session xD

Hair looking like a serious mop x_x 

And this is the handstand! WOOT! *feels proud of self* ^_^

Oh and Just thought I'd throw in the singing of "Scrubs, My boo, 3 canal songs and Donnie Mclurkin music on the ride home" jejeje Tallman To the world! ^_^ 

So Today I learn some more stuff, lol

1. Adam Levine is FRICKING SEXY! (Rediscovered this one, lol) 

2. Maroon 5's videos make violent abusive relationships seem sexy and fairytale like o.O Daz jus me!

3. My Spanish REAL POOR! lol Strangely enough however, when I go to Spanish class I feel like I'm going mad, although I speak plenty, my hair goes crazy I rock from side to side and do weird things, lol But I speak alot of Spanish then, using words I didnt even know I knew, lol

4. I suck at doing cartwheels...still, lol

5. I look like a douen with my hair out and flattened(ish) on all sides. Either that, or like a Chinese boy with a straight across haircut,lol 

5. Fue algo mas! Lo olvido! :( no! espera! Recuerdo! I learnt new words in Spanish!

Jo-Duh 

Hoyuelos-Dimples (I cant pronounce this word without sounding and feeling like a bullfighter drawing my red cloth :/

Marchoso-funky!

And a couple others! It's really awesome to talk in Spanish, words stick more! So I think I'll do it for AT LEAST an hour daily from now on. *Thinks to self, so that's an hour of Spanish, an hour of abs, an hour of pilates nd stretches etc etc o.O When do I sleep? o.O Oh yea in class x_x lol ^_^

I use alot of emoticons, I smile alot, I should end this post now :D 

ELMO'S GOT THE MOVES! *gets marchoso with it* ^_^

And Bob's still your uncle! ^_^ 

Chau :)