Soooooo I Got Robbed.

Well the title pretty much explains it all. So I'm not really sure where to go from here, thoughts so scattered :/

I always wonder and marvel at little changes, big ones too, but the little ones in particular. Like how, taking one taxi instead of the other just seconds away, could be the difference between life and death. Or how, staying back at home 2 minutes longer, or forgetting something and having to go back for it, could be the determinant of whether or not you may notice something, find something, understand something. And lastly, the impact. The impact the littlest things could have on you. Like seeing someone with a certain hairstyle, and your mind goes on into how awesome it may be, how confident they may be, then somehow reach to the point where it eats at your insecurities, makes you wonder why you can't be that yourself, bold and brave, and from then you make the decision to be better, become like this person who might as well be a figment of your imagination as for only a second you glimpsed then, or to wallow in self pity and regret, remorse for everything you've done and haven't done, inevitably leading to a downward spiral. How? from seeing someone's hairstyle? The little things. 

Quite frankly I'm not sure how I feel about this all yet, it fluctuates. No one really knows EXACTLY how they're respond in dangerous situations. Your conscious mind fathers information from your senses, daily experiences, impacting directly on your subconscious, or inner conscious level, causing you to think certain ways, and react different ways. It's sorta like a computer, storing all that information, making you either function smoothly, malfunction in certain areas, or even crash when these inner thoughts are brought to a conscious level. Point is, lol, who really knows EXACTLY what they'd do. 

So here I was, walking home, only to be attacked from behind by two guys. Now you see two guys coming behind you, maybe you get suspicious, but had I looked back, I wouldn't have. Why? Because I know one of them, literally from younger days, went to my primary school, coming to my house to pick five-finger off my tree, all ah dat! So in the actual robbery, I sat on the floor thinking, whilst still strugglin with my bag and them, really? you? you're one of the guys robbing me? REALLY? and then of course, oh no, my money, my bb,my ipod and the stuff I just bought for my graduation in like 2 hours! But, I let go the bag. I didn't know if they had a weapon, and quite frankly I didn't want to find out. Strangely, there was this little boy, no more than 11, just there, on a bike, watching. And when they decided they can't find my phone let's just snatch the bag and go,the little boy rides up to me and says 'Family, what happen?' Really? -_- So tiredly, I ran to the main street to see if anyone was in the road and could have stopped them, saw a neighbor and he called after them, but how much does that really do? Nonetheless, it was appreciated. So, in the blink of an eye, I lost pretty valuable things, think my ring got slid off too..my graduation ring :/
Well, a lotttttttttt more ensued after the event!. It's so mind blowing the amount of things that transpired in the last 24 hours O_O 

But, I am quite honestly not in the frame of mind to discuss that just yet. But now, I'm even more thankful. Worse things could have happened, but it didn't and I thank the Lord for it all. Despite me losing those stuff, those guys lost even more and will continue to lose more. And I pray for them and for better.

P.S I had a blastttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt at my graduation regardless!! I didn't care who bothered that I danced and skipped around with my friends allllllll night, I had just the right to be there, as anyone else, and I live for not a single one of them. But thank God for great friends to share it with! Shar, Lileh, Ma g Nadz, Kankan, Bridge, Pearly, Kimi times 2 and of course, my darling brother Damian :) I love you guys! ^_^